Good nite...^^

Stay whole day at home today...really bad...there is lot thing waiting for me...but...seems like all stuck...mental and physical...but...my brothers and sisters in Christ...they are so lovely...really. Whenever i get in touch with them...i being burned..sumtimes burn bit...sumtimes more... there is always hope when i saw them...like being comfort...a bad day..but sweet nite... just now...went yum cha with nurse sis..at subang..so good to meet them.. before that.. they (juan juan, sj, cy, jiaxin & hui xian) went to sg long..visit my grandpa and grandma.. hope that.. others can bring hope to them.. coz..i dun knw how can i influence them.. that day accidentally saw grandpa "worship" the false god...few days ago.. really felt...not natural when i saw the scene.. grandpa not understand at all...even he pray before in front family..and said Amen..is..just to "comfort" others...my grandma as well.. i hope that my sis is here... face with me together... at least...when we are here...someone interact with me...we can do something.. hope that my sis is here.. but..my home oso need my sis there.. coz at least..there is someone there always remind my pa and mom..my brother.. may someday..they will get influence..pray for the salvation in my family...i love them very much.. afraid of time past..day by day............... hope that..they can understand..the truth one is only one...the only GOD...Jesus Christ..the salvation is in HIM.. hope that..they understand that...world not only the materialistic world..people come..is not for food not for money or others advantage..but to care.. hope that they understand that...there are people willing to sacrify... and not for something from you.. hope that.. they understand.. there are people that treat others sincerely and want to serve them not for benefits..not to exchange..and no trick.. hope that..they knw Christ is the one, the truth one. hope that.. they realise..we all are sinners.. nurses sis goin to leave us..sad for that..really hard to say goodbye..but..GOD is leading.. and.. this might be a way to spread the gospel to the world..we gather..we learn..we gain.. and we separate to spread..i know we should learn..but is really not bear for their leaving.. through them..GOD let us see the hope..in human being.. once i think of goin back to uni life..i felt like being squzeeeedand stress... is totally different with what i heard about uni life.. izit because of my uni n course...? i think so..coz...others fac is not ike us..the environment..feel bad.. ignore...become worse..and worst....i must learn that...learning... Please......me......